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its hard;goodbye hurts

2007-08-15T15:15:00.000+08:00

as much as hate to watch u walked away from me...
i have to do wat i felt was right at that point of time...
i chose to let go..chose to go thru life alone without u by my side...
now i realized how much u meant to me and i wanna apologize...
but words said are not meant to be taken back...
i admitted my mistakes...but will i ever get the chance to talk to u ever again...???
i miss you and i want so bad to talk to you...
will u ever forgive me???

come with me;

2007-06-04T12:31:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: u make my heart smile everytime u smile...

okae...just received a very good news...theres another engagement coming our wae...yessah!! if couple of weeks ago was my male cuzz...this time its one of my female cuzz..hahahha...male/female sounds so wrong to me...

niwaes,her engagement ceremony is set for 07.07.07...and her dowry is $7777...hahhaha...suke sgt2 dgn nombor 7 gaknye...hahaha...im so looking forward to tt dae coz it means another family gathering...and i just love it when we get together-gether...which also means alot of laufters,smiles and silly-milly-dilly jokes....i loike...hahaha...

on to another "good" news...i think i have a job...i think oni ar...honest punye bebual ey,i dunno wat the job requires me to do ar...bcoz my eldest cuzz's fwen,kold me up one fine day and asked me to come down for training for starhub...and i figured tt since im so so so free and obviously still job-LESS,i might as well give it a shot...tk kesah lar keje aper pun...dah malas ey nk g fill form2 ni smuer agy...if the job is worth my time and the pay is good why not ryyyt...when u're in desperate need of a JOB,u cant afford to be choosy lar...i oni noe its paying for 6 bucks an hour...and its a pretty laid back job...all da best to me i guess...

and yar...im missing besty like alot...havent been toking to her like months...u can say tt the fwenship has been somewhat strained and tt its hanging by a thread...i noe im being negative here but if u were in my position,u cant help being negative...obviously the problem is not me being me...its her being the wae she is now...i just hope things get better for her and her bf and tt we will be toking again...hmmm...hopefully!

okae dokie...i guess imma bounce...got a new song n my page...so go check it out...

long overdued;

2007-06-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: this aint a love song...

this entry was supposed to be posted on Monday[28/05/07] but was too lazyy to actually typed it in...plus der a pictures to upload..but smhw i found a wae to put them pics together and decided to post an entry lar...

my "abg sdare" engagement ceremony[27/05/07] was a blast eventho' it was a very very tiring dae for the whole Amir's family...i get to carry the gifts and i was so in love with this crabtree & evelyn love box and product lar...hahaha...it was so cute and pretty...bumped into harith(sara's fwen) at the lady's side...didnt think i would actually met someone i actually knew at this kinda place and situation lar...didnt get a chance to talk coz was busy with the gifts and getting ready to head back to my cuzz hse...anw,heres a vid of the engagement...

i dun wanna go on and continue writting crap so imma end it here...run out of words already...

im tryna;

2007-05-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: aint thinking abt it all,but it just wont go awae...

oritey...a REAL entry after wat seem like ages...theres alot of crap bottled inside me ryt now tt it if i kept it inside for another dae,it might just burst out of its own accord...watever all tt means lar ey...

finally,im back at my own home after 4 mths staying with my aunt at Tampines..for those who loves making assumption,no i didnt got thrown out by my parents for watever reason u guys can come up with aiite...i was accompanying my aunt coz she moved back home 4 mths ago to her hse in tampines...now the flat has been sold and the last couple of months was a lil hectic with packing and going up and down hdb and so on so forth..and today is finally the moving day...she did not buy a new flat coz only her and her youngest daughter gonna stay together...so she rented a flat tt will take at least 6 months to be approved...so yar shes currently living with my eldest cousins...

wat else now???

ouh,luck is certainly not on my side wen i was looking for a job coz till today im still job-LESS lar...like wtf! and i'd realized tt finding a job with oni a higher nitec cert aint gonna be helpful enuff...and with tt i hafta forget my dream of getting a dip in 2010...im determined to get accepted into any farking poly next year by hook or crook lar...i hate idling arnd the hse..hate filling in job application forms...hate sending out resumes to pple..hate being JOBLESS for fuck's sake...and i miss going to school and even miss having homewerk and everything associating with sch lar...but im too lazy to start making new friends again lar...coz they wont be like the ones i have now...haish!!!

altho im on the verge of giving up in finding a real job,i will still keep trying lar...i need cash lar..i think tts d only thing tt keep this "looking for a job" spirit alive...hmmmmmmmmm....and im so smangat to lose them fats lar...its about time i think to live healthy...hahahaha...been watching "THE BIGGEST LOSER" all week long and kinda motivated by them...by knowing myself fully well,i need alot of motivation lar...my smangat is like wat 5 minit je ekh...hahaha..but yar im determined to focus on losing weight too...i dont feel the urge of losing weight before honestly coz i was very "heck-care" but now the attitude has to change...coz theres a part of me wanting to look good,wanting to live to a ripe old age and wanting to be healthy...so tts y im doing this...it gonna take time,of course but gradually i'll get the hang of it lar...*cross-fingers*...

anw,had a long dae ahead of me 2mrw...one of my many cousins are getting engaged 2mrw and gotta be at his place early2...half looking-forward to it.half dreading the train ride to pasir ris...hmm...look out for pics aiite...tons i think...ok i;mma bounce..tc!

"im tryna act like i dont wanna be with you...

like i would be okae if u just walk awae...

im tryna act like i dont wanna see you...

like u were just a face,i'll forget u in a dae..."

random pics;

2007-05-07T17:30:00.000+08:00

Labour Day

Sunday [060507] @ Johor

Elliot Yamin - Wait For You

2007-05-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i'll wait for you...

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and

I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone

Babe you could have stayed

but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep runnin' down my face
Why did you turn away

So why does your pride

make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Baby I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying
Baby why can't we just, just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

2007-04-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: it seems to me tt TRUTH is your worst ENEMY...

hey y'all...finally got the strength to post up an entry here...

i was rushed to a private clinic ystdae at arnd 10 plus

coz i vomitted twice and was in great pain...

tot of going straight to the hospital but we all know

how long the queue is at the A&E...

so instead we went to a family clinic...

i had 7 people before my call...

and if i swear i could have die in pain right there if

mom wasnt by my side...

the pain was excruciating and i need mom and sis to actually

hold both my arms coz i cant walk without wanting to faint...

the doctor examined me and treated it as severe gastric..

i was given an injection and was told to lay down for a good 10 mins...

*imagine the queue outside*

apart from the jab,i was given a letter to give to the A&E dept

at NUH just in case the gastric got worst and needed inpatient treatment...

yup...fortunately the jab kinda ease the pain alil'

and i felt a lil better after 8hrs of sleep...

but right now,as im typing this entry here

i aint feeling good y'all...

i can literally feel the blood draining from my face

and my stomach is in pain again..

and guess wad,im banned from coffee,tea,chocs and all caffeinated stuffs..

not forgetting all the spicy spicy stuffs..

aiya...wats next sia??!!

wats ironic abt all this was...

MediShield people called me the dae before asking

if i had fully recovered from my gastric pain and i told them "should be"

next thing i knew,i was treated for acute gatristis again...

neways,i think imma go and lay dwn coz

i just feel good...

so to all out there..PEACE!!

2007-04-25T22:36:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: im fat and big,so what?! (join tyra banks' SO WHAT movement now..)

okae peeps...

i'd promised y'all a daily dose of me ryt..

but i figured out tt it'll bore u guys to death so i throw awae the idea...

anw,i've been listening to loads of really good music nowadaes

and i wanna share them with you guys...

"I LOST YOU" by Katharine Mcphee

its a very very real-to-life kinda song

and it makes you kinda regret letting someone u love go...

when i heard this song,it kinda gives me the chills

coz her voice is so good and the lyrics just hits home...

"THE ONLY ONES" by Reamonn & Lucie Silvas

its a very alternative rock with a lil country to it i think...

very smooth delivery from Lucie...

and i just heard it today...

love at first sight for this one...

"FLAWS & ALL" by Beyonce

i didnt like the song at first...

but fell in love with the video when i saw it at youtube...

it was au naturel for B and her real self really shines thru...

simply love everything this idol of mine does...=)

"EVERYWHERE I GO" by Katharine Mcphee

another great song from the runner-up of american idol...

talks abt how she wanted to get out of this relationship

but somehow at the end of it all it still comes back to tt guy...

very relate-able!!

so there u have it 4 great songs tt y'all shd take a listen to...

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on to a much more serious news now...

i watched The Tyra Banks show todae on the issue of her being called FAT...

and i really think tt shes a really good role model for us,teenagers...

because right now u see anorexia and bulimia

taking the lives of these young girls perhaps boys too...

being obsessed with looking thin(stick thin) and not satisfied

with how u look even when u're 88 pounds(?kg) is certainly a

HUGE problem the world need to apprehand...

this on going war with food is deadly and is on the rise lar...

for those of you who think tt food is such an evil thing...

well,take a good look around you man...

theres so many EVIL going on right now

tt FOOD wont even make it to the top 10...

get help and live healthy instead of stick thin...

its so unflattering and disgusting...

i think i've said enuff for todae...

toodles!!

2007-04-23T14:35:00.000+08:00

Part 2

so,after yaya's family gathering,

i headed out to my OWN family gathering at
Downtown East...

but before going der,i had to meet my mom at home to help her

carry the foodies tt we're bringing over...

wen we reached the chalet,

most my aunts were there alreadi...

some of my cousins and their sons or daughters

were enjoying themselves at Wild Wild Wet...

dunno how to wait issit...wahlaueh!!*bluekz*

our chalet number or smthng..

so instead of joining of having a ball of a time at WWWet...

i decided to help out in the house...

and helping out here refers to laying on the bed

playing with my nieces and snapping pictures of everybody else...

tts quite a handful of job okae...hehehehe

and those little brats were a handful too aiite...

jump here,jump there...

and their wae of showing love to one another is FIGHT!...

but it was so fun lar...

i dont see them often u c...

so this is a realli good opportunity for me to bond with them...

and i hvnt lost my touch with them brats ey...

they still love to clung on to my back and remember i used to have big curly hair...

so arnd 7,we started to bbq all the food tt needed to be bbq-ed..

theres tons of satay,prawns,meat and chicken...

plus the food tt mom cooked...

enough to keep us full for the rest of the night...

it was such a fun occasion tt it makes me wanna

organise sucha thing again...

while waiting to eat...

my first uncle have the honour of bbq-ing first...=)

i helped for awhile with the bbq-ing

but when my eyes cannot tahan the smoke and started

to go all watery on me, i decided to just hang around in the room

with my aunt and cousins and do wat we do best..

cam-whoring!!

feeling2 konon!

the lepaks clan kelan tung!
yup2...tts my sis,2 fave cousins and my aunt...

we called ourselves...

"THE LEPAKS CLAN KELAN TUNG!"

and i tink imma let the pics do all the talking now...

hahahaha...!!!!

me with the satay i'd bbq-ed

kak yana.bik yati.me

siala.gmbr nk step fierce

kak yana.sis.bik.yati.kak mona.me

me.kak mona

and why dun u pple click here to see more fotos...=)

2007-04-22T12:00:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: what happened before was not a mistake...it was more of a learning experience...

Part 1

oritey...let me start this thang here by saying

"I HAD BLAST YSTDAE!!!"

ystdae was the fun-nest and most memorable time of my life lar...

the first half of my dae,well not really ar...
3 hrs of the first half of my dae was devoted to yaya's family gathering...
to celebrate the birth of yaya's sister newborn baby boy..
MUHD DANI SHAUQI...
and omg he's the cutest thang eva!!

i fell in love with him instantly lar..
he was so small and so fragile...

makes u wanna protect him from all the harm..

he was supposed to pop out on 4th May

but i guess he cant wait to see the world...

and besty's mom cooked alot of food...

it was enough for the whole block sia...hahhaha...

theres noodles,soups,finger foodies and lotsa and lotsa of food...

unfortunately for me...

i came very very early to the gathering...

it starts at 6pm onwards...

but i was already there at 12 noon...

and only 1/4 of food cooked...

waited for besty to came back from hosp for almost 2 hrs...

and only spent time for an hour with besty and family...

i went off at 3.15 pm to Downtown East...

didnt even get to eat them cakes...*boohoo*

but overall i had fun coz her sis was dere to layan me...

and her nieces and nephews...

2007-04-20T00:45:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: all the LAMENESS in the world,could not hide the DISAPPOINTMENT showing on my face...

its official tt im school-less and well still job-less...im so disappointed but what to do...no use crying over spilled milk...its better to take the wet cloth and clean the mess...crying wont make TP except me...wont make my results ani better...wont do aniting except makes my eyes red and my face swollen...and i hate to look like tt wen i see my face in the mirror cause i noe i look so much better..hahaha...

been trying to get a job but hvnt managed to set an appointment for ani jobs yet...i dunno wat job i shd be doing...i dont wanna do admin cause the last time i did tt,i dozed off while doing castings for some oil vessel price...and i hate being confined to a desk and a pc...gawd,tts the most boring job ever lar...how to sit all dae,posting accounts and zapping docs and blah blah blah..i wana to be around tons of good books...ouh im planning to send out my resume to BORDERS or MPH or KINOKUNIYA...any bookstores available lar...hopefully with my kinda qualification,i can get a job somedae...and hopefully i lasted longer than i did at CBTL...5 daes at CBTL ey...still wndering y the hell i even apply for the job...hmmmmm....

anw,im back home for a week y'all...i can spent 1 whole week at my own hse..!!! its long overdue lar...been living with my aunt for 2 mths now...yar 2 mths but seemed like 2 freaking yrs to me...so for these 1 week,there'll be updates y'all...hahha...then on sat i got lotsa activities planned..will be going to yaya's hse gathering cause her sis just gave birth to a healthy baby boy todae(19/04/07)...aft wic will head out to pasir ris for my family gathring at aloha chalet i tink...cant wait for saturdae i guess...was supposed to have a dvd marathon at sara's place on sundae but she had to werk on tt dae due to unforeseen circumstances...so another dae with my girls cancelled...theres alwaes a next time i guess...ouh to my homegurl,SOFIA@SOP..congrats for getting into TP...im proud of you lar...study hard k bebe...make US proud tau!!

on a very very very happy note,SANJAYA MALAKAR is OUT!!!! like finally,dude! America's aint gon be toking abt your hair no more bruh...ur charms werent enuff to make u sailed thru to the TOP...wakakaka...and has anione noticed tt MELINDA is very very cosy with CHRIS...??? like they're a couple y'all...hmm...i wunder what is up with them???i JORDIN!!! shes AWESOME...LAKISHA is good too...bt america's hard to fathom...so we just have to watch and see...

erm,i tink this is pretty long...i think its enuff for y'all to read..hahaha...so till then...cya arnd pple!!1

2007-04-07T23:41:00.000+08:00

"I fade out when you're next to me

you stand beside me and

It pushes me off the end of the world

You fill the space that was meant

For both of us..."

2007-04-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: whatever happen to forever??

waddup pple...im feeling under the weather right now...so bear with me if i get cranky in this entry...i totally gv up on getting a place on Temasek Poly...coz the last time i checked my application is still "under consideration"...im like ferget it,watever..i did my best and if i cldnt get in,then i'mma have to find a job and try again nxt yr...most of my frens cldnt make it...some with gpa higher than 3.5...so im not putting alot of hopes into my own application lar...its freaking exhausting to wait for smthng tt puts u on the edge eh...

anw,had an emotional time ystdae lar...was at my youngest uncle's hse...then me and mom sorta squabble...and i was so mad lar...then alamak my uncle go and pujuk me sumore...apa lagik meleleh lar air mater ku ini...i nvr intend to cry ok...but i was mad and sore and vulnerable lar...so yar,cried infront of everybody...dayum!!! but its not easy to cajole me...so i didnt utter a single word until we reached home lar...i just need my space!!i mean com'on lar im almost 20 ok...im an adult!! cant i make my own decision...i've alwaes been making my own decision anws so why only now does she decide tt she wants to make tt decision for me...susah datang ar!!

i cant wait for 2mrw...will be receiving my edusave merit bursary...i dun wanna get up on stage...i just want the chq and get outta der lar...leceh sak nak naik stage ni sumer...then i'mma go on a hunting spree to buy me new handphone coz its been long overdue...and the rest of the moolahs imma save it for my "rainy days"...if theres one to come lar...

oritey..i gtg...need to get on the fone with Junainah Bte M.Puad...so till then...

ciao amigo!!

2007-04-05T13:16:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: miss you...

if there's anithing i've learned over the weeks,its this:trying to breathe a sigh of relief when u're awfully stressed out doesn't help at all...

why??

because everytime i tried to do tt, i felt even worse..my sighs got heavier and longer and useless...and i was never at ease...and sleeping at night was worst...i woke up like every goddamned hour trying my very hard not to sigh...

FYI i dont even know who or what am i sighing about...im clueless for fuck sake lar...and i dont even like the feeling of being clueless...it makes me feel inadequate lar...and i've been really paranoid...i used to love being alone at home or sleeping by myself at night..but now i just need someone to be around...a living breathing human being to be within my reach...how bad can it get huh???!!! this paranoia thing is realli killing me lar...i cant stand being alone and if im alone,i will sleep thru...i just dont wanna wake up being alone in a house nimore...haiz...*aper nk jadi huda???!!!*

anw i have this award presentation going on this sundae...and im not sure i want to go or not..not my kinda of thng....and ouh did i mentioned my gpa dropped from 3.5 to 3.227 and i got a D for audit...a fucking D..what the hell did i do do get tt grade sia...??!!!and now i dont noe if i even wanna go to poly...im tired of everything..of studying or mugging or making new frens again...just tired lar...!!

d only thing im looking forward to is buying a new fone...so tts all for todae and the rest of the week...!!!

"is it wrong for me to feel this way,

u've been running thru my mind all day,

can u feel me??

i've been trynna get u off my mind,

but i can't after all this time,

that's what kills me..."

2007-03-27T12:44:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i need you outta my system...

oritey peeps..been trying to gather my thots for this entry

and fyi this is my 4th attempt to actualli write in

something's tt read-able...

and its really hard to come up with aniting

because my heart just wasnt in it...

but then here i am typing awae

and hoping i came up with smthng along the way...

anw,i was darned mad at besty ystdae..

she can be such a bitch sumtyms...

we were SUPPOSED to meet up after 2 months

of not meeting up and it didnt happen lar...

im like anticipating to bum arnd at her hse and

i end up bumming around in my OWN hse...

and i cancelled my date with sara n sop for her sumore...

shd have just gone to meet them girls up...

atleast i can cheer myself up...urgh!

and i've realized tt these few daes ryt,

i've been toking on the fone with sara alot...

i mean its a good thang lar...

bcoz she cracks me up everytime

and alwaes gets on my last raw nerve...

and i love her just as much as i hate her...hahaha

and im so proud of her lar...

shes a working adult now...

ystdae was her first day as a full-fledged nurse at NUH...

2 bad babe we clndt celebrate it like we planned...

hopefully 2mrw's a g'day for us 3 girls...

okae...wats next..hmmmmm...

im planning to visit AD this week...

and on mon be going out with them peeps...

hitting the library soon again to borrow more books...

on the 7th going to a bbq party of my sec sch good fren at changi...

on the 10th(?) im planning to do smthng but...

then the rest of the month ima just rot at home...

and make my fat behind grow fatter...hahaha

i guess im done with trying to blog about things...

so imma get outta here...

see ya in my next entry hopefully!

2007-03-18T02:33:00.000+08:00

2007-03-18T00:29:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: as we go on,we remember all the times we had together

oritey people out there...

guess its time for me to actually fill u guys in about

the on-goings on my life...

so if this entry seems to be too looong...

i apologize aight...

here it goes...

first thing first,i wanna talk about the exams...

well its OVER and done with obviously...

im glad i managed to catch up on the topics

and hopefully i do well for them...

but the thing with exams being over is that

school is DUNZO too...

which of course led to separation from my friends of 2 yrs...

now tts the hardest thang to do...

Friendship built over 2 years..

Lotsa ups and downs...

Fights,tears and of coz laughter...

and its hard to leave the place lar...

on the last dae,i went up to clear my locker

and suddenly tears welled up...

its like finally we're graduating

and altho' most of us wished it good riddance,

the thot of not seeing our friends as often was inevitable...

those were the people who made my time in ITE

a time worth living for...

and its them who showed me the true meaning to the word

"FRIENDSHIP"...

u can call anyone your friend

but not many are as trueful as they can get...

and im very lucky tt god made these pple my true-blue frens

u guys alwaes put a smile on my face every single day...

school would be boring without the company of u guys...

the eating together sessions and many more will alwaes be remembered

to sara and sop:

we've been friends since sec one

and now we're even closer eventho' we rarely see each other in school...

the both of you knew me inside out and im truly grateful

that even with lotsa of miscommunication and squabbling,

y'all still stood by me and love me for who i am...

to jun & ana:

y'all are the closest gfs i had in sch apart from my best buddies(S&S)...

being there for me when i was down and

showed me how to be a good friend...

nvr once judging me...

i love YOUS!!

to abid & amsyar:

my two jackasses...the craziest of the lot

always made me laugh my heart out...

those bonding sessions at NOODS was the best time

i ever had lar...

we toked abt everything and altho' we didnt managed to keep the "tradition" going after the separation into 2 class, it was still the best time...

i've never met any guys like the 2 of you...

i love YOUS too!!

to nora,tika & nisah:

my daes in ITE is not complete without the three of u...

u guys are truly amazing and forever kind to me...

i heart YOUS lar!!

to Adlina & fEfE:

eventho' our frienship doesn't span over 2 long years,

im still grateful i got to know the both of you...

2 AWESOME individuals tt will forever etched in my mind...

LOVE YA!!!!

and to those whom my words might have hurt you,

i sincerely apologise from the bottom of my heart...

i don't really intend to bury any hatchets yet

but hopefully time will help me...

to husna(if u're reading this ever):

i know u never intended to make stories about me

but do think of the consequences lar...

its not nice right having me come up to your face

and bombarded you with anger...

i let the matter rest loong time ago,

but i said to you before and i'll say it again.

if you don't intend to be my friend then stop spreading lies

and act all innocent coz i don't either...

to aisyah:

i don't think i have tt lotsa probs with you...

we had lotta pretty good times and

u've been a great friend...

so cheers!

to syaf:

the feeling of hatred is well..MUTUAL!

u noe i hate you and i noe u hate me..obviously

i'm sorry i can't stand you

and im sure i've said things tt might be hurtful to your ears

or someone else's ears abt you...

but whatever differences we had,

im ready to bury them...

well,almost ready lar...i dunno can do or not...

but don't worry,if i ever see u on some streets,

be sure to see me smile at you...=)

to my teachers:

thanks for guiding me and

showing tt with absolute faith in oneself

and also hardwork+determination

we can go far in life...

also i wanna thanks my family for believing in their eldest daughter...

giving her the chance to set her own future

and seeing her through her "teenage" period...

appreciate all tt...

to my besty,thanks for lecturing me abt how impt sch is

and tt i shd be grateful tt i still have the chance to study unlike you...

and alwaes give me tt strength to carry on when life seemed to

play a horrible joke on me and lending me a listening ear

whenever i needed them and those hugs of comfort

telling me tt everything is gonna be alryt...

i really do appreciate all the lil2 gestures u've done for me...

all of u made me a BETTER person

by showing your care and guidance...

if i ever let you down,

i apologise coz it nvr ever crossed my mind to do tt...

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!!

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oritey,finally managed to met up with sara

after what seems like forever...

i had lotsa fun goofing around with my homegurl...

we sang along to songs like " '03 Bonnie & Clyde"

and "kau" in the train...we even did a lil dance...

it was a day worth spending...

i love you babe!

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ahhh!!!

i'm finally done with the nvr-ending entry...

so sorry again for being long-winded!

g'nyte!!

2007-03-08T11:08:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: no more complaining

oritey...been studying for my exams these few daes...managed to do 3 out of 12 revision papers...hahaha...well,atleast i did them papers aiite...im purrty confident about my AAII paper(accounts) coz i know all the format...but as for Auditing,i need to work harder lar...10 topics okae...how sia to jam all of them inside my BIG head but not-so-BIG brain...thats a HUMUNGUS challenge u know...hahahahha...hopefully i wont get a mental block when facing the question paper...if not, i'd gladly hang myself by the window....

anws, i've decided to keep a written journal..because for obvious reasons tt i cant blog at my aunt's place...but this journal will be a very personal one...like u know the feeling2 kind tt cannot post here...however, there will be ocassional posting of my written journal entry here on my blog...i've realli realli given it a thot..hahaha...i have about 3 written journal that are either left unwritten,half-written or fully-written...one mostly filled with poems,one i used to share with ana and one which supposed to be my working planner...two of which was beautifully decorated while one was just plain black...and i love all of them...because everytime i read back the entries, i find myself asking "did i really wrote all tt stuffs?" or i would have a laugh-out-loud moments when reading entries tt tickled me...it was fun!! i cant wait to write down all my thots...

anws, i gtg oreadi...class ending soon and i'mma get my fat ass back to my aunt's place and decorate my trusty pillow with more mind-boggling maps....hahahha...see ya!!

~toodles...

2007-03-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: where did i go wrong,i lost a friend

hello people...been some time since my last "real" update...not many things happen but i had quite an eventful week...

i'd picked 3 courses from Temasek Poly...
1) Law & Management
2) Hospitality & Tourism Management
3) Leisure & Resort Management

and oso i got 2 edusave awards(Merit Bursary & EAGLES)....i nvr expected it lar for the EAGLES award...coz nvr received one in sec sch...so like unreal like tt...but yar good for me(pats myself on the back)...

im worrying abouth one thing tho'...the exams...im currently not that confident about doing well coz i've been procastinating and find it hard to focus eventho' my aunt's place ios like D perfect place to mug...ask me aniting about AUDIT, i cannot answer i tell you...i hvnt even memorise one single thang..and the exams are like a week awae...how to squeeze 10 topics in one BRAIN...impossible i tell you..my BRAIN especially...HOPELESS!!! i just hope lady luck is on my side lar...=

anw had a study session with Jun at my aunt's place todae...not realli a study session because oni jun studied..i sat there watch her and pointed out her mistakes and taught her stuffs...so u could actually call it "1 to 1 tutoring session"...i cannot study lar...with people or alone...i just cant...Pathetic i know...dun even try to ask me why aite...but the session was fun...right JONET??!!

anws, i cant update no more for now...my head 's spinning like a top...i have sore throat and a fever...dayum!...i need to go get some sleep....so nite y'all...

"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life"

2007-03-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: focus on yout focus, i can feed you...

2 new videos from BEYONCE!!!

Beyonce Featuring Jay-z - Upgrade U

Beyonce Featuring Shakira - Beautiful Liar

i have both songs so if u like them and want them songs, just tag me or lemme know...=)

2007-02-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: sombong-

im watching Pesta Perdana right now and i just hafta blog abt this...

TAUFIK IS UBER-HAWT!!!!

2007-02-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: tell me what you want from me,take a look at what you see..let me know if its right here,something u could have for years...

first of all, i wanna apologise for the irregular updates...didnt meant for it to happen but as u know, my aunt's place has no internet connection and thanks to ana's lappy i can surf wireless and complete my TPS/CDP project that's due on Mondae...loads of things need to be done...

aniwae, went to catch the premier for "DREAMGIRLS" ystdae with Jun...it was AWESOME!!! I know why J.Hud outdid B on this movie because her role is much more vocal while B's character was someone who is soft-spoken and gentle...anywhos i still LOVE me some BEYONCE...good movie roles or not she is still a phenomenal woman to me...and nothing or no one could change that..hehehe...and ouh im thinking of catching the movie again soon..so if anione is interested, lemme know...=)...also i was blown awae by eddie's murphy performance...it was much more serious than the NORBIT character he potrayed...and if the voice when he sang is his own voice, then i have to give 2 thumbs up...for his voice is just amazing...and the songs are great...my faves have to be LISTEN(duh!) and Beyonce's version of One Night Only...however there's this part in the movie that makes my hair stands up and i couldnt stop laufing when i think about it...there's this scene where B and Jamie foxx(Deena & Curtis) were supposed to make love lar...it was all romantic and B had to spoil it(for me)..her dialogue was " Oh Curtis, Let me have your baby..." hahahhahaa...that sounded so old-fashioned and juvenile...hahahhaa...it still gives me the chills...hahahaha...
and the last scene of the movie was touching...well i cried a lil'...just a tear drop...hahahaha but it definitely touches my heart...=)

anw nuff' abt tt...i can go on n on n on abt the movie if i dont took it upon myself to change the topics...hehehhe...oritey, im going back home 2mrw but will be back here in tampines on sundae...i miss my family alot ok and my room...and other stuffs as well...but most importantly, i need to talk to my mom face to face and discuss with her about my poly application...i have to pick 3 courses and these 3 courses have to be from the same polytechnic...and im tinking either TP(temasek) or NP(Ngee Ann)...but i dunno coz i need to talk to mom abt all this ryt...so tt have to wait till 2mrw...i hvnt even told her tt i got the form oreadi...hehehe...hopefully she can help me decide..hehehe

on to other news...i finally heard from besty ystdae...i miss her so much lar...it turns out tt she took time awae from people to clear her thots...and she's sorry that she didnt talked to me for she wants to do this on her own and that eventho' she knows its hard without me guiding her through it all, she didnt want to burden me with them probs...AWWWW...but i told her i'll be glad to help her overcome any of her problems and tt i'll always be right wer she wants me...and tt i will respect her decision if she chose to deal with it herself...but we're not meeting up anytime soon thanks to her busy work schedule..shes holding 2 jobs right now...both jobs required her to walk around...and yar shes goddamn tired but she needs to be financially-stable before she can quit one of the job...i just hope she doesnt overworked...and that shes doing fine and healthy...

and many many apologies to sara honey...i know i told u i'd wait for u to come to sch ystdae but my migraine was hurting me tt i went home oni after 2 hrs of lesson...dun be mad aiite babe...im sure theres a next time for us to meet up...=)

i guess thats about it for now...will update again when i have a much more interesting news abt the on-goings of yours truly life...

2007-02-20T14:46:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: resentment. tts wat i felt towards you and no matter what happen in the future,it is still gonna stay that way...

oritey..been out and about lately...been staying over at my aunt's place in Tampines and will continue to do so until exams ended...and during the last few daes i've been there,ive realised just how much i missed my family and my room and my pillow(esp my bantal bucuk),my pc and my tv...

and eventho' i got alot of freedom at my aunt's place and tt every morning i woke up to a table full of food for breakfast, i still miss waking up to seeing mom getting ready for werk, bro getting ready for school and my granny's incessant nagging...

and ouh did i mentioned tt my aunt's place have no internet connection just yet...and no home fone and also no digital cable..all because she just moved back home..so my oni companion is my aunt and her daughter...the 3 of us...and my aunt loves to make spontaneous decision...and the other she make the decision to go mustafa centre and hearing tt i hvnt been there before,she took the chance lar...so we reached there arnd 9pm...and OMG im nvr going back there again..it was so cramped and so big...i had a hard time i tell you...and the BANG L.A.s are all over the place...and eventho we spent like hours dere, we still ended up going home forgetting to buy this and buy that...hahaha..it was fun...and of course tiring...

and i have added a new scar to my right leg...its near my ankle,calf or watever they call it...wanna know y...??well i was trying to stand up and i was feeling a lil groggy and my headache is back plus its 8 smthng in the morning...i lost balance and as tried to grab aniting to make sure i didnt fell but i ter-pushed my wardrobe door in and because its a sliding door, it came right off and the sharp part kinda grazed my calf/ankle and my left leg kinda gave wae and yar i toppled...it hurt so bad lar..but surprise surprise i didnt shed a tear just cringe wenever i think about the cut and the bruise on my butt...accident-proned urh??? =

aniwae sch starts 2mrw and my CDP/TPS project aint done yet...i gues i have to come back home on sat/sun to finish them up for mondae is the godddamn presentation...hopefully all is good coz i oreadi know what i want it to look like and how it should look like..but then again things can go haywire...and hopefully sch aint gonna suck...

i miss my besty alot sia...been close to a month since we last saw/talk to each other...theres alot i want to talk to her about and i want to hear all about her work,daes and stuffs ya know...i wonder how shes doing right now...shes been werking doubly hard now since smthng happen to her sis..."im owaes here for you aiite angel...u will owaes have my shoulders to lean on,my shirt to leave them stains on and my hugs to let u know tt everything is gonna be olrite..."

ouh i miss sara honey alot too...plus sop darling and ana banana and jun jonet...

'nuff said...this entry is freaking long i think...take care peeps...see ya in a few daes time...my next entry i mean....=)

2007-02-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: life is like writing in pen...u can cross out your mistakes but u can never erase them...

was in school for like 45 minutes oni todae...

and it was such a boredom

coz jun's not around and the oni i can count on is shamini..

as for amsyar?? well lets just sae he's got his hands

n mouth full on someone else...

*and full here refers to busy aiite.....*

aniwaes went to my werkplace

ouh wait my FORMER werkplace i meant to sae

to give back my uniform,apron n name tag...

the atmosphere was sumwat tense...

im so-not-kidding u lar...

its like they(the managers) were mad at me or smthng...

they were so unwelcoming i tell you...

except for this one girl..

her name's jade(my batch mate)

she was like "hey! huda..."*waving frantically*

like she dont know im leaving...

her face kinda changed when i told her

im there to return my things...

hahahaha...poor girl!!

so yar...this is like a H-U-G-E burden off of me...

why a burden? i heard u asked...

its because i hate it...

and to get rid of it means i will feel good...

i nvr turned my back to look at it for the last time...

and i must sae i dun feel aniting abt the whole place...

its true tt i had some good times there...

but staying is not smthng i will force myself to do

if the my heart is just not into it animore...

Money can be earned aniwer my friend,

but if i failed to get my hands on my cert,

then its me tts going nowhere...

also,i dun wanna be in a place

wer their fave past-time is talking abt others...

and i said this because im one of those pple

that became one of their topics...

anyhoos,im just glad its all over...

and i cant wait for this sundae..

prolly gonna watch norbit..

and my movie date wit Jun on next thurs

for the premiere of the much-awaited

"DREAMGIRLS"....

can't wait...=)

ps: hey girl,if u got talent,be humble abt it...no use flaunting smthng that pple couldnt care less of...especially me...!!

pss: i may sound jealous but no,im not...its an insult to me to be jealous of u...

2007-02-09T12:02:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: true to your heart...

went to see the doc again ystdae...

my migraine has gotten worse...

even the doc suspect it could smthng else

[eventho' he didnt exactly say it out loud]

haiz...might have to go back in a few daes' time

for maybe a scan or i don't know...

whatever the doc needs...

to jun:

if u're mad at me for not coming 2 daes in a row,

i'm truly sorry aiite...i have my reasons....

and if u pre-assumed that its bcoz of that goddamn NAPFA

then u're prolly half-right...

tts part of the reason but NOT the reason...

to sara:

sorry to u too hun...

didnt noe u were in school ystdae

to sorta suprise me...

will make it up to u some other dae k...

it scares me to be tinking tt it could

smthng worse than migraine...

migraine is such a headache oreadi lar...

can u imagine me having some

brain/head-related sickness...

i cant even imagine myself bald...

i know i always complain incessantly about

my afro-ed hair...

but never never would i want to lose

all of my hair...

i seriously am in love with my hair..NOW!!

im just hoping everything will be fine...

uber-fine hopefully...

2007-02-07T14:22:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: and these are the days of our lives...

alritey...havent been updating regularly these daes...well,simply because theres nothing much to talk about and also im lost for words...anw lets get on with watever worth getting on aiite...

i skipped school 2dae to go for my eyes appt at NUH...woke up at 6am in the morning to fix my pc that broke down(AGAIN!) ystdae...and as u can see its up and running again thanks to yours truly...i don't really know whats the problem this time round,im just glad its fixed...

anw,2mrw is going to be the dae i dread the most...coz its NAPFA and im not a HUGE fan of those 5-letters ancronym...i mean com'on,anione who would take a look at me shd realise at that very instant tt im not one who would run my ass off on the track and do 5 stations to be given a Gold,Silver n Bronze badge or collar-pins or watever they give aiite...i'mma just get it done and over with 2mrw...if i fail then so be it...no use pretending i can pass what...

aniwae here's some spontaneous thot on my part...

i told you everything that i thot u wanted to hear
even when its hurting me that u couldnt care less
your reactions couldnt have been any clearer
that i could never be your very best

what makes me mad was not a question of who
but its the question why
tell me what do i have to do
to make you realise that u're living a lie

i wish i could keep holding on to could-have-beens
but i don't see the need to anymore
coz i cant change all of your feelings
when the pieces don't fit here anymore...

so there you have it...my entry for todae...=)

2007-02-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: for a moment you were my favourite guy...thanks!

okae dokae..i dont know where to begin but hopefully i know wer im going with this aiite...for the first tym in a looong while i cam to sch early n did not skip any lessons instead stayed back for 2 hrs for extra lessson todae...because usually every thursdae,i wld take the "initiative" to come in at 12 n then leave at 2...but todae i came in at 8 smthng and ended at 4 smthng...i must sae tt it was a pretty loong dae for i was aslp all the wae from tampines to jrg east...and one stupid ringtone and a bunch of bdak2 kental had to spoilt my "beauty" slip...wth oni...

anws i got back my AAII CA2 marks ystdae...and to much relief i did quite well..infact its shocked me somehow...dont assume my humbleness as a brag bcoz i swear i thot i wld not do well for the paper...to put it simply, i oni catched up a week before the test...all i can sae is i scored somewhat above the 80% mark...and my teacher told the class tt the min GPA points to apply for poly is 3.0 n above...so i guess i'll be filling up the form pretty soon...=)

now i almost got a foot in...its up to me to decide whetherto put the other foot in also or pulled out the other foot a step back...it all depends on my final GPA points...and i'll be graduating soon in abt 5 weeks or so...and the thots of it kinda excite me n make me feel a lil' sad to be leaving the school,the teachers n of coz the foods...and the friends...will we still be in touch??*sigh*

anws im looking forward to 2mrw...will be picking up them monsters from school and after which will have a lil' badminton game with my sis...been some time since i get my fat ass doing some sports...hahahahahahaha...so hopefully 2mrw will be a fine dae for me and of coz to y'all out there...

tc pple...=)

" for a moment i thought i lost everything

for a moment i thought forgot about our memories

then i woke up and i realized how much you mean to me

for a moment i thought i lost you and me..."

2007-01-30T20:48:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i reallie wanna be with you but it aint gonna happen 'coz she's what u've always wanted...

look wat i've found on sara's blog...

"oh well.
NurHuda bte Ramlee,

do you know that im deprived of your attention.

im deprived of your everything.*evil laughter*

meet up soon,OK?"

hahahaha...a note to sara:

i will babe...in fact i tink this thursdae is

a good dae to spend it with you...hahaha

i fetch u from werk aiite...

then we go walk2 until u get bored of my company k...

anw confirm soon ekh...!!!!

lambat aku tknk layan ko ar...

anw..i wasnt supposed to update..

coz i put on my tagboard tt im pretty darned busy...

but after i read sara's blog i kinda changed my mind...

i aint fickle usually but nowadaes i just

cant seem to put my finger on one thing...

im so indecisive now lar...

like wat the hell...

i couldnt even decide to go home or

stay in school...*slaps head*

so i went out to meet my sis

and my cousin(with 2 lil' monster in tow)

at forum shopping mall...

it was a spontaneous decision on their part...

i'd rather go home actually...

and i actually enjoy myself eventho'

i was carrying a heavy load on my back(sch bag)...

ouh and my aunt who was on her wae back home from werk
came down to meet us the moment i told her

we're town-ing...shes from Ubi...hahaha

and we went to loads of places coz

the 2 monsters wanted to see fishes...

lastly we went to wisma atria...

where they totally found a new interest in ATM machines...

wth...is tt thing even fun to play with...

go figure aiite!!!

then we went to eat at lucky plaza lvl 2...

Resto Surabaya which sells super hot nasi ayam penyet...

the sambal...ya allah pedas nak mampos...

tk terkater aku dibuatnyer...

like effin spicy lar...i have to drink like a whole bottle

of mineral water and still the hotness stays...

luckily got avocado juice...

after a heavy dinner...

we went home...

my aunt went back to tampines

while me,sis n cousins took Express 502 home...

i was a whole of fun + talking crap + gossiping...

another dae out can..but weekends blh?

ps:wats up with couple breaking up when its nearing V-day...

shdnt they wait until V-day pass then ask for break-up...

so far i've counted 7 break-ups among my friends...

*haiz*...

pps:to yaya n sara better stick to ur mr azhar n mr johan

respectively ekh...

tk penat ker nk start back from scratch ar...

2007-01-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: thankful for the day i found you and called you my very best...

okae dokae...ystdae was super-duper fun and one of the best match s'pore had ever played...

but first i wanna apologizes to my mates coz im late for almost 1/2 hr...i noe i noe u guys are prolly swearing but hey we did get seats behind the goal post...hahahaha...

the match started out okae but it was so frustrating everytime the home team gets a free-kick they kinda abuse the chance to score a goal...and everytimes theres an opening,they all not dere...and i must say the opponent's team is lincah...not easy to outrun them on the slippery field...and when M'sia scored their first goal,all of us are literally cussing i tink...

and there's these group of pple at the other side of the stadium shouting "BUTO" to the M'sian team at the beat of eleven claps...it was rude yet funny...hahahaha...and we were so ecstatic when S'pre finally scored to make make it 1-1...and i dont even know who the hell kick the ball into the goal post...all i know is when i saw the goal i jumped up in excitement...and after the goal, they kinda play back n forth to waste time to go into read this:30 mins of extra time...

my butt was already hurting sitting on tt wooden bench during the 2nd half...another 30 minutes would be complete torture...*sigh*...and even with the extra time,no goals was made...and so they have to have the penalty shoot...this is the interesting part of the whole match...

it was so nerve-wrecking and my heart was pumping more blood than usual i tink...i was seriously nervous abt tt than my coming CA 2mrw...first to shoot was S'pore...and it went in...hahaha..and i dunno wassup with lionel lewis and his direction but they seem to ferget how to coordinate...hhahahaha...i mean why the hell do you go right when u jolly well know the ball is heading for left...it was frustrating to see them M'sians shooting in the ball...but lionel did right at the 6th Msian penalty shoot...he saved the ball from getting into the goalpost...and at tt very moment the stadium in unison sang the oh-so-famous song "Ole Ole Ole Ole..Ole Ole..." and jumping up n down and cheering and of coz hurling abuses at the M'sian...hahahahaha...it was D moment tt makes the the whole trip dere worthwhile...hahahahaha...the moment of GLORY!!!

It was damn magical i tell you...even thejoy of winning the lottery cant match up to this...for the millionth time,i PROUD to be a SINGAPOREAN!!!!

and after match, i had to walk like 2km to the bus stop towards jrg...fecking long walk...on my own...coz im heading straight home...the bus ride was effin long and luckily i managed to catch the last feeder bus home at 1am...i reached home at 1.20am...

ouh and 10 mins after i reached home,KA-BA-BOOM!!!! an esplosion occured at the carpark below my block...i thot it was some stupid groups of mat n minah rips playing mercun but then NO...3 motorcycles was set on fire...and ouh they were badly burnt...very badly burnt(check out the pics)...i was stunned...i mean just 10 mins ago i was walking at the same place and seriously i saw no one lingering around there...and the next minute theres a huge fire...if i was 10mins late,imagine wat would have happen to me...???!!!!!3-degree burn prolly???...i cant imagine seriously...and tell u smthng i was feeling a lil weird during the bus ride that i called my dad to open up the doors for me...so i guess my instinct knew smthng was going to happen...and true enuff smthng did happen...!!! My parents and i went down to take a look...and the fire was on one of the cars bside the motorcycles...luckily the fire brigade came early or the car might explode too...and the night will be filled with fierce orange n red flames...it all ended almost 1 1/2 hrs...and then i went to sleep...hahahaha...so damn shagged okae...
and ouh did i mentioned all 3 bikes are owned by malays...2 of them are father n son n d other one is their family good friend...all from my block...sad isnt it...

to those who set the fire: BEWARE AR PPLE!!!

2007-01-28T15:50:00.000+08:00

2007-01-27T15:55:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: Someone should tell you how much i love you...

oritey....pple sorry for not updating regularly/religiously coz i've been uber-lazy lately and eventho i have lotsa to tok abt,i just dont feel like blogging...i guess the novelty is wearing off of me...aniwaes i cant wait for tonight's match(S'pore VS M'sia)...altho im not that BIG a football fan,im still gonna be der for the team...and with my bunch of crazy friends around,its gonna be doublr triple the fun...hahaha...

like many others,i do hope the s'pore team do us proud and if possible bring home the glory...and i must sae,the s'pore football scene has nvr been this exciting since the Fandi's period...but i guess we'll just have to wait and see tonight's game...*cross-fingers*

anws i had fun on thurs eventho i was a lil bit under the weather due to tiredness...my mom's friend came by my hse with her 2 yr old daughter and shes such a darl lar...shes so cute and intelligent...she made me laugh so much tt my stomach was in pain...hahahaha...and kinda hard to let her go home after having a ball of a time...hahahaha...

aint she just adorable...i wonder when she'll come by again...hehehe

so,im having AAII CA this mondae and i dunno if im gonna pass or fail coz i hvnt been doing the revision papers and also im not attentive in class when it comes to this...and if i dont score atleast a B for this paper, there aint no wae for me to get an A in the final paper...so der goes my chance of going to POLY...and i have only myself to blame...

anyhoos,lookout for a pictureful entry tonight or prolly 2mrw for updates on the soccer match...*winkz*

tc!

2007-01-24T21:35:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: whe winter comes in summer,when there's no more forever,when lies become the truth,that's when i'll stop loving you...

the dae out with my beloved besty

is well,fantastic...

altho' im tired coz i quickly rush to meet her...

i was an hour late mind you...

luckily shes in good mood

if not all the wae her mouth cannot stop nagging...

make pple wait can...she wait for pple cannot...

so met her at paragon...

then from there we went to far east to grab a bite

coz im famished...

after making sure our foods are properly digested,

we went to window shop and

make stupid remarks or just laughing our hearts out...

bitching abt how stingy her bf was and

aniting under the sun lar...

after tt wen to wisma to window shop again

(she hvnt got her pay u see...)

then taka then finally we sat down in front taka

to cam-whore...

and got this apek selling chestnuts

keep hollering "holla"...

so noisy okae...

high-pitched nk mampos...

in the middle of the hustle n bustle of orchard road...

who want to pegi lyn sak...

and thanks to her,

my ppd is now 0(zer0) cents...

but i do have loads of fun with my besty...

and school todae totally doesnt sux at all lar..

im hoping it'll stay till the end of this week...

coz i must sae tt its been the best week ever..hahaha

so till here im gonna update...

take care y'all...

and fEe, welcome back to sch 2mrw!!

2007-01-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i don't know what came over me but the moment i saw your face, i just feel like crying...i miss you so much i guess...

haiz...

i don't if sighing is an appropriate wae

of starting todae's entry...

but yar i just felt like sighing...

todae was a great dae...

far too fun and far from being pissed at smthng

tt's not worth my time...

until just now...

just now when i saw besty pics at frenster...

when i saw her at her latest...

i just brokedown for obvious reasons...

1) she looked so thin n hollow

2) she looked so happy with her current beau

3) and lastly I MISS HER ALOT!!!

and just when i was hoping she'd call me,

my phone rang and it was her...

can you imagine how i happy i was...

to hear her voice and her laughter

after soo loong..

but the fone call was quite brief

'coz her bf is dere...

but fret not,we'll be continuing ltr tonight...

i miss her truck loads lar...

i got loads of things to talk to her...

abt werk,abt school,abt someone and abt me...

i just miss her so lar...

altho sometime she really2 get on my nerves

and do things to make me mad

or poking at the fats under my hands

which fyi i hate alot...

i still love my bestfriend...

for she's the only one tt can find the right thing to sae

to cheer me up...

for she's the only one tt can come to my place in the wee

hours and my parents dun mind

for she's the only one tt i can call my bestfriend.....

and for tt i thank the god above...

I MISS MY BESTY ALOT!!!

2007-01-22T09:03:00.001+08:00

thoughts for the day: Sorry, is sometimes the most hardest word to utter...

oritey...i've been too lazy to actually

update this blog of mine and

feed y'all with the ongoings of my life...

this is my 3rd attempt this couple of daes to

atleast update a lil...

and as u can see i only succeed at the 3rd n last attempt...

i'll try me best to rmb wat happened

on sat n sun aiite..

well,it was supposed to be my last dae at CBTL rite..

but as i expected it,

the moment i set foot in the outlet...

my trainer asked me loads n loads of qn...

and she kinda talked alot of sense into me and

made me re-think my decision ar...

i nvr realli consider money an issue...

but somehow she made me realise tt sometimes its

better to have some cash of UR own instead

of keep spending your parents' money...

tt part she was abso-bloody-lutely correct....

i do need money for MY own activites...

so yar i take back my resignation

and took 2 weeks leave to settle things at home n school

before starting werk again...

i guess im not leaving CBTL at the moment...yet!

then,ystdae had a little time out with my

precious niece,dini dannisha...

we went to my werkplace first

to take some stuff from my trainer

but unfortunately she forgot to bring it...wth...

so we sat arnd for awhile and i must say

i almost lost patience with the niece...

but i guess tts how kids function...

hahahaha...

especially growing up kids like her...

after being there for almost 1 1/2 hrs

we decided to head for sumwer else...

and after walking arnd with her for almost half da dae,

we head home...

and home was the most comfortable haven this week...

this week, i found myself impatient to get home...

partly because school has been tiring and

the train rides home has been well,

very exhausting...

i nvr seem noticed tt it was a long journey back home...

but recently it all came to light...

i just dreaded the ride home...

my butt hurts for sitting too long and

my neck stiffened easily...

ouh and not forgettting my back...

its hard to stretch my back in tt confined space...

and when i finally reached home,

i slumped myself on my parents' bed and wait for

the TYRA show to start...

now tts the highlight of my everydays...

THE TYRA BANKS SHOW....

Tyra just made my day seem awhole lot better...

with her crazy antics n funny humour...

and i'll alwaes sae...

"THANK GOD FOR TYRA BANKS"

hahahahaha....

its in times like this that laughter proves

to be the best of all medicines...

as for todae,

im supposed to be in school like right now...

but here i am typing in this entry...

all because i woke up late...

hehehhee...

so now i'mma grab my towel n head for the shower

to just be in time for the 12 noon lesson...

take care y'all...

ps: i addicted to TROPICAL PASSION tea latte

pps: yaya's gonna go back to her old job at LAWRYS after much persuasion by my cousins...

2007-01-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

ARGH!! THIS ENTRY IS SO GONNA BE SHORT BECAUSE AFTER WRITING A LONG ENTRY, THE PC DECIDED THAT IT WAS IN ITS BEST INTEREST TO HANG ON ME...SO YAR ALL MY THOUGHTS FOR THE PAST DAES IS NOW GONE...AND NOW IM CURSING LIKE HELL IN MY HEART & I FEEL LIKE BREAKING DOWN...THIS IS DEFINITELY ROCK BOTTOM FOR THE TOUGH WEEK!!!! AND YOU WERE THE REASON!!!

2007-01-16T19:54:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: its not my cup of coffee bean and tea leaf...

oritey...school totally sucks todae...

the moment i start sch,i was pissed off

about smthng JUN told me...

it just got me all flared up lar...

and not only tt,

i realised that the thing i've been so into

all this while was totally not worthy of my time...

it was all bollocks lar...

what the hell was i thinking sia...??

You're such a joke to me u know that...

how i wish i could hurled loads and loads

of vulgarities just to let u wake up...

U went too far this time...

way too far..to the extend tt my friend

had to cry because of you...

tt is so unacceptable lar...

do you need to get hit by a truck

to actually realise tt the world doesnt revolve around you only???

i'll be darn glad to drive tt truck...!!!

but two things make my dae awhole lot better...

books & McD...hehehe

i finally used my gift voucher to

get me a book "Tamar"...

and JUN gave me a book too..hehehe

i love the book she got me..heheh

coz i picked it personally...hehehe

and thanks to my aunt for treating me to McD...

tt certainly help me alot...

and this saturdae is my LAST day at CBTL...

i called my outlet todae and resign...

i dun realli have the interest to werk there animore...

and im thinking of giving school full concentration

since its the last 3 mths before i graduate...

my teacher commented tt i've change lar..

and to be commented like tt kinda wake me up...

coz i did change ar...

my attitude towards school is like watever now...

and with tt kinda attitude,

i'll prolly not get a cert lar when i graduate...

and i made a pact with myself

not to skip animore classes starting 2mrw...

werk wise, i have to tink abt it

once i think im realli2 ready to werk again...

and i wont be continuing on with CBTL...

im kinda interested in BORDERS or MPH bookstores...

but yar all that have to wait...

anws to those who said i couldnt stay on tt job...

i guess u guys can rejoice now urh...

but 1 thing i gotta make it clear...

i quit not because i couldnt stand the smell of coffee..

believe it or not,i'd overcome tt one thing...

and to Shurio, if u want me to make u a drink ryytt...

u gotta come down on saturdae...

if not,sorry u wont get the chance to put ur evil plan in action

animore once im outta CBTL...muahahahaha...

so tts it for todae...

my feelings are so mixed up...

tc and so long!!!

ps: and excuse me for being so angsty this week...i got alot of things going on at the back of my mind right now...*winks*

2007-01-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i can't find one reason good enought to not hate on you...

oritey...i noe in my previous entry i said about burying

all the bad feelings that existed in each of us...

and what im goin to sae here might be a lil'

contradicting and u guys might say "Practice wat u preach"

but hey, i cant help it if its kinda mutual rite...

let's just put it this way...

i never liked him/her the moment my eyes saw him/her...

his/her voice irritates me so much

its as if the nails are scratching those damn blackboards...

and not only that...

everytime i saw him/her, my mood just make a

360 degrees maneuover heading for the worse...

i tried very hard to find atleast one thing to like abt this particular person

but i alwaes end up finding more n more reasons

to hate on him/her...

its like the more i try to like this person, the more i hate him/her...

i noe im not a bad person...

i swear im not...

some pple take a quick look at me and said

i'm unsympathetic and tat im unforgiving...

com'on lar...u're not my friend

to even sae those things about me...

and just like this particular person...

are we even friends in the first place???

u noe me by my name..so wat???

u noe nothing about me...

its because of you tt i have to lie thru my teeth

about my own feelings...

its because of you tt i feel like as if one dae i might just snapped

and kill u in front of everybody...hahaha

and its because of you tt i feel so fucked up...

URGH!!!

I HATE YOU!!!

'NUFF SAID OREADI...

2007-01-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: this life we're living in is full of unpredictable events...

oritey, for your info, the post before this was on fEe's dad who had just passed awae recently...i think all of us who received the news was shaken...it all was too sudden even to her family im sure...

but i guess tts wat life is about..we planned everything tt was supposed to be in our lives...but GOD's the one that can either make the plan into a reality or make a fool out of us...in other words, no matter wat we do, fate never fails to poke their nosey nose into our business...

one of the things they conveniently brought into our lives is death...some deaths are purely based on illness or an act of criminal wrongdoings while some are just unexplainable...either wae its inevitable...no matter how hard u tried to fight death or avoid it, it'll still come looking for you... just like the phrase "U can run, but u can't hide"...

its true that if its your time to go, you will go...the only question is when?...when is your time exactly...can u tell just by looking at your clock...or is it wriiten in that monthly planner of yours...???i guess we will just know when the time finally arrives...for that's when we'll see our lives flashes in B&W in front of our very own eyes... when the urge to hold the ones u love tightly in your arms before you left them...when all wrongdoings were immediately forgiven...and
thats when u'll noe u're life on earth is finally over...

so before your time is up, do what u have to do...tell them u love them..let them noe how much u treasure them and its time to bury all the bad feelings tt existed in your life...for LIFE is like TIME..it is of the essence..much too short to live it in regret...TREASURE EVERY SECONDS OF IT...

to fEe: be strong for your mom and for yourself aiite gerlfren...im sure your late dad don't want to see u in this sad state...and he never meant for all this to happen...remember him at his best aight...take care!

2007-01-13T20:19:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: May GOD bless your soul.Amin

Innalilahhi wa inna ilahhi rajiun

Semoga ALLAH mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.

AMIN.

2007-01-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: its when u tried ur best to erase the memory of that special someone that u realise just how much you love that person...

and i know that because i have loved and lost you...

and at the same time fell in love with you all over again...

ps: go watch eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!!!

2007-01-09T19:27:00.000+08:00

.thoughts for the day: Thanks for everything...i Love y'all!!!

hey...i had a wonderful dae todae

and nothing could spoil it...

first of all i just wanna say a big THANK YOU

to abid,amsyar,nora,tika and nisa

for the gift they got me...

i didnt expect it at all lar...

it was weird tt they got me Famous Amos

when i actually gave Famous Amos

to one of my lovely friend(fEe)...

on the same dae too...

ouh and its a heavy pack lar they gave me...

plus i also got a $20 gift voucher from Times...

also a gift from them...

"mcm paham jek i need a new book to read"

and i had a blast hanging around after school

with Jun and Aisyah...

it was so fun lar...with the weather so cold like tt...

hahahhaa...

todae couldnt be ani better...

ouh and i managed to sleep in class too..hahaha

and well got away with it...=)

im looking forward to wat is in stored for me 2mrw...

im lovin' every single moment of it

before each of us graduate and go or separate waes...

ps: fEe,i hope ur cookies not broken or aniting...and njoy them aiite!!!

2007-01-08T22:53:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i wish it were simple...

Other Side Of The World - Kt Tunstall

Over the sea and far away

She's waiting like an Iceberg Waiting to change,

But she's cold inside S

he wants to be like the water,

All the muscles tighten in her face

Buries her soul in one embrace

They're one and the same

Just like water

Then the fire fades away

But most of everyday

Is full of tired excuses

But it's too hard to say

I wish it were simple

But we give up easily

You're close enough to see that

You're.... the other side of the world to me

On comes the panic light

Holding on with fingers and feelings alike

But the time has come

To move along

Then the fire fades away

But most of everyday

Is full of tired excuses

But it's too hard to say

I wish it were simple

But we give up easily

You're close enough to see that

You're.... the other side of the world

Can you help me?

Can you let me go

And can you still love me

When you can't see me anymore

Then the fire fades away
But most of everyday
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're.... the other side of the world

2007-01-08T07:44:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i see your lips moving but i don't hear nothing...

2007-01-07T19:09:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: nice meeting you...

just got back from visiting besty...

and i must say,she looked pretty damn worn out...

but tt doesnt stop her from torturing me...hahaha

the bf(hers not mine) was der to keep her company too...

and we didnt communicate much

'coz im not much of a talker...

but besty mom as usual treat me better than besty...

hahahaha...

saw her cut and damn it was scary...

it kinda peeled off the skin at the thumb...

and she had to get around 6 stitches i tink...

and with one hand,

she still manage to do a minor "operation" on my face

by taking out the blackheads on my face...

its shiok,painful and painful again...hahaha

not oni tt,she can dyed her bf hair with one hand oso...

and she cried when the doc stitched up the cut...wth oni...

wished tt i could stay over longer but i cnt

sch starts 2mrw and i got things to do...

plus she needs to rest blah3...

so before i end heres a pic for y'all...

2007-01-07T09:28:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i feel beautiful even if u beg to differ...

before i start this entry, i wanna apologize for not updating

for the last couple daes 'coz too lazy to blog after werk....

so this one here will be goddamn long...

and exhausting to even look at aiite...

so yar im so so sorry...

lets start with the work thingy aiite...

Day 1(Fri)

i was supposed to start werk at 12 noon

but i came in at 11:49am with butterflies

fluttering around in my stomach

and my bladder feeling realli weak...(?)

this is definitely not my 1st job but

i don't know how im gonna make it thru the dae lar...

when i reached the outlet,

it wasnt realli that busy 'coz it isnt lunch time yet...

so i was assigned to a full-timer

who will trained me until i get it right...

my trainer name is Fazila...

shes funny,loud and friendly...

but the oni thing i dun like about tt outlet is tt

theres alot of malay pple...

and address each other with "kau" n "aku"...

i rather they converse with me in english

or if they use my name instead of "kau"....

i just find it weird(rude)

when someone im not close with or even know

address me tt kinda wae... i guess i hafta learn to adapt...

anws, i learned alot of things for the first dae...

like the ratio of extract to milk,

how to blend and not to overblend...

blah blah blah....

and i managed to rmb all of it within tt 6 hours lar...

i made a couple mistakes here and dere

but its normal i tink...

its my FIRST dae okae...

obviously my brain aint processed to the way things

work around there rite...halamak!!!

my trainer was good i tink...

shes patient and she didnt reprimand

instead she showed u step by step

and make sure she had your attention...

and by the end of the first dae,

i was pretty much exhausted...

nvr had i been standing for 6 hrs straight..

then met up with fEe and friend,buzz

to look for smthng2 for someones..

then they went off to town and me,home....

and i met besty for a brief while

at Jrg East Interchng b4 she went to werk...

and ouh did i mentioned i was lucky tt fridae...

i picked up a dollar coin outside CBTL on the way to toilet

than in the toilet i found another 50cents on the sink...

total = $1.50...hahahaha...lucky ryyytttt...

so tts all in a dae werk...

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Day 2(Sat)

so ystdae was my 2nd dae at werk...

and this time i gotta werk with sara honey and cousin,Juu...

it was hilariouslar werking with them...

plus my trainer and my crazy Asst Manager,Han...

"lawak dorang tak blh angkat sak"

i had the most fun lar ystdae

coz im a lil confident and sara was around u see...

so finally someone im familiar with...

i learned how to cut breads,roll the salmon and some gourmet stuff...

and i brought home 9 slices of Tiramisu cake...

3 for Sara,3 for fEe and 3 for me...

i cant possibly finish it...

so might as well give some out...

ystdae was purrty busy..

we kept running here and there..

but there was a time when all of us just sit and joke arnd

'coz no customer...hahahaha

and training home with sara was great coz

it has alwaes been great...hahaha

met up with fEe to pass her the cakes and

cabbed back home dropping sara first b4 i finally reached my hse...

i rested my butt for an hr b4 dragging my sis to rent some dvds for the night...

but end up rent one oni...hahaha

"House Of D"...

a great,heart-warming story abt friendship,growing up

and going back to ur past in order to move forward...

and no prizes for guessing if i cried or not...

it was so moving and at the same time funny...

there are alot of laugh out loud moments

and moments tt touched my heart...

so tts all for my 2nd dae...hahahah

ouh and i received a call from besty at 2.49am...

she was crying lar...

shes at the hospital waiting to be treated...

she cut her finger or hand so deep tt her manager

had to sent her to hospital...

my heart just dropped sia hearing her cry in pain...

and she had to have stitches...

shes given a week long leave and todae im gon visit her at home...

and don't worry besty i saved a slice of tiramisu for u..

i noe its your fave babe...*muackzS*

so i'mma end it here...

nothing to talk about animore...hahaha

if its lame or boring i apologize...

bye!

ps: fucks school start esok sial...

2007-01-04T20:31:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: im disappointed can??

oritey...i was supposed to blog abt my dae

but got a lil sidetrack a post an entry tt

doesnt realli make sense b4 this...

anw i wunder why everytime besty came over

it'll pour like crazy...todae is no exception...

besty came over at 5:30 in the morning...

right after her werk to spend the dae with me

before i started werk and sch...

it was raining heavily i tell you...

i was shivering like an addict

when i went downstairs to pick her up...

and the strong wind made me so fresh and perky...

and i was swaying ar...blardy hell...

once at my place,i heated up the food for her

and wait for her to finish eating blah3

and then she went to sleep first before me...wth

cannot wait issit...!!!

then after sleeping for oni a couple of hrs,

she had to wake me up using her fist...

waking up has never been so painful lar...

and the rest of the dae we just talk cock

and play stupid jokes...

den we went for late luch/early dinner...

and we saw dis "beautiful" man...hahaha

and she did her best to grab his "attention"..

but to no avail...ahhahaha...

the guy just tk layan her lar...

and den it rained like crazy again...

i was soaked to the core lar...

and she had the cheek to sae...

"wah...dah lamer ekh kiter tk main hujan ginik..."

its true lar but cant u see im shivering...??

so sent her off in a cab and ran home...

now my head is spinning at top speed

and im starting werk 2mrw...

GOD,help me make it thru my 1st dae aiite...

ps: thanks babe for coming early in the morn and stayed until 12 hrs later...

love ya to bits and pieces...

2007-01-04T19:25:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: can i walk with you??

I shouldn't love you but I want to

I just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you but I can't move

I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not

'Cause I don't know how to make the feeling stop

Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help it I won't sit around,

I can't let her win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all

Before I go

Just so you know...

It's getting hard to be around you

There's so much I can't say

Do you want me to hide the feelings

And look the other way

This emptiness is killing me

And I'm wondering why I've waited so long

Looking back I realize

It was always there just never spoken

I'm waiting here...been waiting here

2007-01-03T14:51:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: I no longer feel the same 'coz u made realised that no matter what is being said or done,i won't get a single reaction from u...

hey people...

the start of 2007 was a lil' bumpy i must say...

and the oni great show tt i watched without ani disturbance

was "Carmen:Hip Hopera"

it started at 3:45pm and 15 minutes before it started

i "ushered" my sibbs into my room and make sure they

stayed dere until it ended...

so i was alone in the living room watching

my "B" doing her thang without even looking elsewer bsides the TV..

and when i finally turned to look at the clock..

guess wat?? its 15 more minutes before it ends...

i was like "are u kidding me??"...

time realli "flies" real fast when u're concentrating on one thing...

it was such tt mixed-feelings kinda movie...

deres alot of emotions going through each frames...

and in the end Beyonce died...

can u imagine my frustrations...

and i cried lar...

it was so sad..the ending!!!

and the songs from this "musical"

or as they put it "hip hopera"

was dayum good lar...

was enjoying every bits of it...

and b's good at rapping..hahaha

and mekhi phifer is uber-cool in my opinion...

but the best looking guy i must sae is the villain,Mos Def...

he was so good looking and dellish...

i guess girls do love bad boys...

anws,im so looking forward to the movie

"DREAMGIRLS"

i dont know when'll make its debut here in S'pore

but i cant wait for tt dae to come creeping in...

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nuff' abt B aiite...

now to the more impt stuffs...

sch starting soon and i got like 3 months before

im graduating...

but will i be graduating with "flying colours"??

that is definitely the main focus ryt now...

i've been s l a c k i n g the whole of my 2nd yr...

and i did realised all of it

but da prob is i keep procastinating changing

tt kinda behaviour...

and i've not been a good group leader to my group...

bcoz this "heck care" attitude of mine

will give me as well as them the bad grades...

but they have the part to play too...

but rest assured im trying very very very very hard

to make it werk..to get them good grades

and get me hands on those certs...

well...atleast i'll TRY !!!

2007-01-02T12:35:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i let it all out...don't spoilt it!!!

oritey...it took a whole dae for youtube.com to

proccessed my video...and now its up and running...

i just wanna thank those of u in the video...

mainly yaya,ana & gang,jun,fee,ams,abid,sop and sara....

thanks ekh!!

2007-01-01T16:24:00.001+08:00

thoughts for the day: stay-

Every night i lay and think about it

If U love me U could live without it

But i don't wanna do U that way.

I don't know exactly what i'm feeling

I'm kinda scared but then i'm kinda willing

Will U promise me just one thing..

No matter what U're gonna STAY...

2006-12-31T20:58:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: just so you know...

hey pple...so todae's Hari Raya Haji

and it was fun meeting my uncles n aunts again...

we alwaes had fun together as a family...

and ders alot of food to feast on...

who dont like tt sia...

and dey're coming round to my place on Sunday

for karaoke session...hahaha

i'mma brace myself for it...

comfirm my hse topsy-turvy...

but im glad lar to have them as my family...

so 2mrw is the New Year '07...

and i've got resolutions for 2007...

just gonna focus on my sch stuffs

and werk...save up some money and enrol for Class 3(mebe)...

so funny resolutions like talk less blah blah blah...

and im planning for smthng on the 3rd week of Jan...

those who got cash and want are willing to stay out,

do join me and my frens...hahahaha

and i just got to know tt my schedule is not on thurs & fri...

changed to fri & sat coz sara wanted to werk with me...

she pleaded with the manager for tt...hahaha

how sweet is tt...!!!!

will be going out with sop on wed to dave n dane to get smthng..

and then to china square flea market to order my framewerk...

so tts my plan for the first week of the new year...

im reallie forward to hanging out with my peeps again

when sch re-opens and do the stuff we used to do...

ouh and im missing the chicken rice!!!!

hehehhe

oritey...tts abt it...

im in the midst of creating a muvee...

so look out for it in the next post...

take care y'all..

"HAPPY NEW YEAR"

"GOD BLESS 2007"

2006-12-30T14:26:00.000+08:00

thoughts for th e day: all good things comes to an end...NOT!!!

"Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end..."

okae...

left one more before 2007 comes creeping in...

im seriously not tt excited in welcoming the new year yet...

coz i have to come up with new resolutions

which i'll nvr come thru to fulfilling...hahaha

why do we have to come up with new year's resolution

everytime its a new year???

tt is so troublesome lar...

seriously do anione even care wats ur new year's resolution is...????

they'll be like "arh..tts a good resolution" and tts about it wat..

so y bother yourself...!!

anws,'nuff abt all tt...

sara told me tt im starting werk on thurs and fridae...

but dunno wat tym yet...

argh!!! thurs??!!!!

alamak how to watch prison break sia like tt...

hopefully its not like until 10pm...

i cannot miss tt show man...

if not i keep wundering and wundering and wundering...

and i dun like to wunder...

it'll make my brain exhausted...hahahaha

so yar werking on those 2 daes...

after tt can send in my own schedule...

coz school starting soon and i cant possibly werk

any dae i want...

so i'll prolly werk on daes tt ends early...

lets sae tues,wed,fri

and mebe both sat and sun...

coz i dont wanna rot at home no more this new year...

and i need cash to keep me going..hahahaha

and can anibody please tell me wer the hell

is CHINA SQUARE FLEA MARKET??!!!

i reallie reallie reallie reallie need to know before the 15th...

help me out y'all...!!!

oritey i gtg now...need to shower and clean my room...

so see ya arnd...

2006-12-29T14:53:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: u know i got your back since day one...

besty came over ystdae...

i had lotsa fun with her...

i'mma let the pics do the talking...

ps: and she broke my bed...*sobs*

im bedless for the new year!!!

2006-12-27T20:30:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: i'm here for you come rain or shine...

hello pple...finally here i am to tok abt todae's orientation...

oritey...it starts at 1pm...but i was dere early..

in fact very early...12pm okae...

talk abt being punctual...hahahahaha

the trainer(Pamela Wong) was friendly...

lame at times but its all in the name of fun ar...

todae was more about wat we(the barista trainee) should noe...

like wen CBTL was first established tt sorta facts...

i saw two faces tt i usually saw in sch...

aint gonna name names here...

and i think i made one fren...hahahaha...

same outlet as me...

and todae we learnt tt the brand is not to be taken lightly

and tt those who go against the rules

will be fired right dere and den....

fierce sia like tt...

and to SHURIO we are not allowed to give free drinks ar bruh...

so go pay for ur own drinks ar..wakakakaka

so yar tts abt it for todae...

starting werk nxt week....

and damn! school starting soon...

argh!!!

2006-12-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: im excited as well as nervous for tomorrow

oritey...went to MW to picked up my uniform

for 2mrw's orientation at Bukit Merah...

it was not busy when i arrived there...

was lazy to go in the morning

so ended up there at arnd 7 plus..hahaha

so yar the AM gave me size L...

i go try..just nice sia...

then i said i want bigger lar...mebe XXL...

but asked me to wear tt one..crazy ar...

but i got my XXL shirt in the end...hahaha..

than me,ana and farok went to LJS to eat...

it was so hilarious lar at LJS...

we toked about wat if NDP all of us go marching...

and it all started with u noe those pple

wearing uniforms...(police..etc)

and we were like laughing out loud...

after "dinner" we catched the shuttle bus to CT Hall...

and we kinda went our separate ways from there...

and now im at home with butterflies in my stomach

trying very hard not to think abt 2mrw...

im scared.excited.nervous...

'nuff said...

ps: thanks to ana and farok for accompanying me at the last minute...

what if

2006-12-26T11:28:00.000+08:00

Kate Winslet - What If

Here I stand alone

With this weight upon my heart

And it will not go away

In my head I keep on looking back

Right back to the start

Wondering what is was

That made you change

Bridge:

Well I tried But I had to draw the line

And still this question

Keeps on spinning in my mind

CHORUS:

What if I had Never let you go

Would you be the man

I used to know

If I’d stayed If you’d tried

If we could only Turn back the time

But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take

Some to joy

Some to heartache

Anyone can lose their way

And if I said That we could turn it back

Right back to the start

Would you take the chance

And make the change

Do you think

How it would have been sometimes

Do you pray

That i'd never left your side

CHORUS(repeat)

If we could only

Turn the hands of time

If I could take you back

Would you still be mine

Bridge(repeat)

What if I had Never let you go

Would you be the man I used to know

What if I had never walked away

Coz I still love you more

Than I can say

If I’d stayed If you'd tried
If we could only Turn back the time

But I guess we'll never know

We'll never know

2006-12-26T10:55:00.000+08:00

bdae celeb

2006-12-26T10:22:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: if u can't beat them,join them...(Amsyar's Tagline)

okae dokae...my 19th birthdae celebration was great...

it came as a surprise because i didnt expect it at all....

but i guess mom is not tt good in keeping suprises under wraps i think...

hahaha...tts because she called me up and told me not to go out....

she bought satays and a huge cake(Choc Mousse)...hahahaha

oOoOpPs....!!!

well...both my fave aunts are dere to celebrate it with me...

as well as my cousins and niece and nephew...

the oni person missing is besty...

she couldnt come due to some unforeseen circumstances...

but i had lotsa fun nonetheless...

and grans cooked one big pot of briyani rice...hahaa

and yesh i managed to do nothing at all ystdae...

i basically just sit down and watched the tee-bee...

and the occassional run to the toilet...

other than tt im bumming around...hahahaha...

all i gotta sae is this 19th birthday celebration

is one of the best i had...hehehehe....=)

2006-12-25T11:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

MAY THIS NEW CHAPTER OF MY LIFE

BE FILLED WITH LOTSA AND LOTSA OF

FUN.LAUGHTER.PEACE.AND.JOY.....

OUH AND MANY MANY BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE

I CALLED FRIENDS...!!!!

SMUWACKHZS!!!!

2006-12-24T16:49:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: if i ever leave you without saying goodbye or a reason why,just know that you're the best i've had...

oritey...its oni hours away from the most important day

of my entire life...my 19th bdae!!!

i cant even contained the excitement tts building up inside me...

some pple might say "its just another day blah blah..."

but no its NOT just another day when its ur OWN bday...

and birthdays are supposed to be

much more special than any other day u marked down

on tt yearly calendar of yours...

anws, i planned to do nothing 2mrw

except for bumming around the house watching tv and

waking up really late..hahhahaa

i made no plans to go anywhere 2mrw and

i plan to stick to tt plan of mine...hahahaha

and ouh these are somethings tt i really wanted to have...

a copy of Destiny's Child:Destiny Fulfilled tour DVD
a brand new mp3(preferably the new SONY walkman)

and yar i guess tts about it..not tt much i must say...

so hopefully im gonna have a great bdae 2mrw...=)

2006-12-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: u don't even noe the meaning of the words "I'm Sorry"

oritey...first of all i would like to make an announcement

*clear throats**drum rolls*

I AM NOW A PART-TIME BARISTA AT

COFFEE BEAN AND TEA LEAF

hows tt??cool sia...hahahaha

i was asked to come down at 10 am ryt...

but i arrived at 9.40 am...

but luckily the asst. manager,HAN was in oreadi...

so yar HAN interviewed me for abt 10 mins and

said i was to do down to ani polyclinic to get

my typhoid injection cert and a copy of my i/c and bank book...

so i called sofia up and asked her to meet me at my hse at 12 noon...

i need to do a u-turn lar to take my bank book all...

so by 3pm i oreadi had my typhoid injection and

off we go to millenia walk again to pass HAN the docs...

then sop,me and her sis went to candy empire

and had our late lunch at Suntec's KFC...

we went to the arcade at top floor to waste some money

and den we headed home lar...

all of us legs turned to jelly oreadi....hahahaha

and i got blisters on my foot again for the millionth time..hahaha

and to sop and her sis,fiqqah...

thanks for accompanying me all the wae to clementi and millenia walk...

U GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!

and this entry is greatly summarized...

coz i dont want it too be looong but look it is still loooong....

2006-12-22T00:31:00.000+08:00

too many fotos to update sia...i update this one oni lar...tired oreadi...

2006-12-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: when u get chased by a dog,don't run...!!!

okae...first of all the family dinner was GREAT!!!

the walk-thru orchard road was tiring but it was fun...

wat was not fun was ME being chased by a small puppy...!!

we're were at the void deck when this happened...

this f**king lil puppy was chasing a lil girl around...

then it saw my family and start chasing us...

it went to my father 1st and my father kinda scare it awae...

so it chase me and my sis...

the funny thing is i go and run awae...

com'on lar basic instinct ryyt.........

if somthing is chasing after u,the 1st thing u do is run...

so yar i ran round the whole block lar...

with oni one sandal...like wth ryyt....

i ran and ran and ran and shouting and shouting and shouting

but this dog still gave chase...

i was running at TOP SPEED i tell u...

coz my sis had her jaw hanging..like fo' real lar...

and me too...i nvr ran that fast in my entire life..

not even on the track for the 2.4km run...

nvr once did i looked back to see if the dog was behind me...

im so damn afraid oreadi lar...

luckily i nvr peed in my pants....

if not i think i stay at home no need go dinner...

and my family was laughing all the wae to the bus stop lar...

and my lil bro was shocked i think...coz he kinda kept quiet the

whole time in the bus...

BAD BAD DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first destination for the dae was to Sim Lim Square...

dad bought for us a new dgcam...

sales price babe...oni $199...

the brand:Nikon Coolpix...

not bad lar...atleast it captured life's beautiful moments...

den we took 2 separate cabs to Newton Circus for dinner...

we ate lotsa foods i tell u...

i was so freaking full okae...

from the famous ikan bakar to butter prawns

to chap chye to sambal kangkong to crispy baby squid

to tom yam and finally cockles...

the table was left with very little space lar...

and no prize for guessing which one was the first to be attacked by us...

THE IKAN BAKAR!!!!!!!

super duper trooper SODAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sampai menjilat lutot beb*

after that we walked to Far East plazato do a lil shopping...

den just walked along orchard road...

it was just impossible lar to walk properly...

so damned pack and noisy...hmm...

and the ride home was bad too...

anw reached home,mom cut the birthdae cake and after tt

zzZZZZzzzZZZZZZZzZZZZZ....TIRED!!!!

so overall,it was FUN.TIRING.FUN(??)

2006-12-20T20:13:00.000+08:00

oritey...im so friggin happy..

coffee bean and tea leaf Millenia Walk gave me a kol

and asked me to go for a 2nd interview...

they wanted me to go 2mrw between 5-8pm

but i had to change it to fri at 10am..

i got family dinner 2mrw rmb??!!!

anws i cant wait to go for the interview...

i hope i get the job lar...

then i wldnt be stuck at home during the holidae...

i think they kold me up bcuz i put my werking hrs

from opening to closing...hahahaha...

i dont mind the werking hrs lar...

i've been on my feet for 12 hrs before so this is nothing...

and also i put tt i have some knowledge in the acc system..

which is true lar...i noe ACCPAC and SAP system...

so i guess tts y dey kold me up..hehehe

aiyah it dont matter lar..

as long as i have a job...I NEED A JOB!!

to basically fulfil my many wishes and help me financially..

so yar hopefully i'll become a part of

COFFEE BEAN & TEA LEAF...

3 in 1

2006-12-20T10:17:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: if i give you my hands,would you take it in yours..??

okae...im so pumped up todae...YEY!!

first of all its because todae is mom's bdae...

she sure had a big suprise at the strike of midnight...

hahahaha...we bought my mom 3 types of jewelleries...

she couldnt believe her eyes lar...hahahaha

thanks to dad of course for forking out huge sum of moolahs...

we'll be having a family dinner together on thursdae to celebrate it...

we're thinking Indonesian food...*yummy yumyum*...

i cant wait for 2mrw...!!!

next is because the SUN is finally out!!!

after daes of heavy rain and cold strong wind,

Mr Sunny Sunshine(??) finally decided to show his/her face...

*i would be glad to have u for a few daes mr sun!!!*

im just getting bored of the rain...

i cant go aniwer lar...*kner duk umah jek besarkn bontot*

and i just looked outside the window...

what a beautiful dae it is...

the fresh air.

the golden sun rays.

the sounds of birds chirping.

the laughter of kids playing downstairs.

the subtle blowing of the wind.

everything lar tt can be seen or done on a sunny day...hehehe

the last one well had nothing to do with todae

cos it happened ystdae...besty!!!

thanks babe for coming over when its raining heavily

to just accompany me...i had such great time with you...

thanks for everything babe!!! =)

2006-12-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: HAPPY 43TH BIRTHDAE MOM!!!

Happy 43th Bdae MOM...

thanks for all ur guidance and care thruout these years...

we would nvr be able to make it without ur support!!!

donation story

2006-12-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

i think the phrase "it doesn't pay to be kind"

is a spot-on...take my sis for example...

she was doing a good deed by donating $2 to this malay guy

who came up to her with folders and documents about

those needy malay pple who needs the help of the public...

but instead she was robbed off of her hp...by that guy...

she thought nothing of it when the guy

asked if he could her hp for awhile...

and she just took her eyes off the guy for awhile and

*poof* ...he was gone just like tt!!!!

i wasnt exactly dere when it took place

but i heard it straight from the horse's mouth...

all i can sae to her is "i told you so..."...

im not trying to rub it in but he was the same guy

who approached us on our back from the library last fridae

and i knew back then he was a shady character lar...

so to y'all out there,

don't be a victim of these donations collector

or watever they called it aiite...

make sure u checked watever identification they have on them

and tt the body they're collecting donations for is a legal one...

not so made up shytes...

get that in your head!!!!!!!

2006-12-18T17:30:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: hate is not the opposite of love,indifference is...

todae is such a boredom...

all the mondae blues are getting on my nerves..

and the rain just keep pouring non-stop...

i like the cool feeling but somehow todae was not the dae

to enjoy the cool feeling...haiz...

besty texted me in the morn and wanted to meet up ltr todae...

asked her to come over my place

coz im cashless and pretty busy to be going out...

then just now i texted her again to cancel it...

i dont want to trouble her in this weather...

so we just have to find another dae to meet up...

i have till 8th Jan to meet up with her...

lotsa time to spare...

anws i was reading back on my previous entry

on my msn space and picked out some of my fave entries...

so u guys might want to click on those links and

be entertained by it...

ps: some mebe a tad too personal but then if its online its no longer a personal thing ryyt...anw have fun....

2nd entry

2006-12-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

thoughts for the day: what is lost cannot be replaced...

okae..my 2nd and last entry for todae...

i was thinking of things to rant about but

apparently nothing came to my mind...

i wanna tok abt everything tts covered under the sun

but somehow tts not possible...

anw its been raining heavily these past few daes...

the huge incandescent sun somehow give in to

the rain and wind...and so we had some very wet daes...

i dont know if its a good thing or not...

(panas terik complain,ni hujan lebat pun nk complain)

i hope it doesnt rain for most parts of 2mrw...*cross-fingers*

my friends sans yours truly are going to ESCAPE...

too bad i cant join in the fun with them...

all thanks to someone!!!hmpf!!!

was really looking forward to the rides and stuffs

but smthng cropped up last minute and i had to forget all abt it..

sorry guys!!

and sorry to besty too...

i noe u really want me to attend Jumizah's wedding todae..

but i kinda disappoint u by not turning up...

im so so sorry..i just cldnt be dere...

"...but dont worry,i'll attend your wedding k hun...

i'll be by ur side dae and night to help u prepare..hehehe

but it better not be anitime soon urh i tell u..."

and ouh i cant wait for wednesdae to come...

it gonna be an awesome dae me(i think)...

so i think tts all im looking forward to this week...

till then...take care pple!!!

back again...

2006-12-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

oritey...this isnt my first blog at blogspot.com...
and i dun think its my last either...
look wat happen the last time i said that...hahaha

anws i gotta make the switch from MSNspaces to here again
at the moment to get awae from some things...
i think i need a breathe of fresh air...
need to open a whole new chapter...
a new dimension from where i oreadi was before...

so yar this is my current online journal as of todae...
do visit : www.frickymickysickydicky.spaces.live.com
to read up on my previous entries...=)